Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Life again~~

Just wondering if you had to pick an age to be for your whole life,
knowing that you would just stay that age and never grow older,
what age would you pick?

Would you pick 2, the first time you know how to speak and walk.

Would you pick 4, so that you are well taken care of, living life happily ever after.

Would you pick 6, so the only thing you have to worry about is how to get your parents’ attention.

Would you pick 7, the first year of the primary school.

Would you pick 13, the time that you start to act like an adult.

Would you pick 15, to experience falling in love for the first time again.

Would you pick 16, so that you can party all night long with your girlfriends.

Would you pick 17, last year that you can wear the school uniform.

Would you pick 18, you start to move out from your house, and live in your own world and pursue your own crazy dreams, forever.

Would you pick 25, when you start your first career.

Or how about 30, so that you can always tell everyone that you're only 30,
and doesn't want to get married yet.

Would you pick, any number, understand that you wont be able to grow old with your loved ones?

I think we all have no choice but to succumb to the nature.
Growing up is a process.
Life is a process.
We are a process.
The universe is a process.
Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.

Embrace life.

babelism of thinkings

Sometimes it could be scary just to think about how
how you would regret in the future with the things that you had done in the past.

You laughed at your own hairstyle in the old photo albums.

You wished you have a little more courage to talk to that boy you like.

You wished you have spent a little more time with your family.

You wished you could have spent more time with your girl pals.

You hoped you have studied a little harder for your exams.

You regretted on not taking another path.

Ten years after today,you might regret for not doing something more constructive
than reminiscing the past that you could never turn back to.

The scariest part is that
you will never know what is the right thing to do now,
which is the correct road to take
you just stand solidly
in the middle of the road
in the midst of confusion
surrounded by all haze which makes your brain blank
until the present became the past and the past is irreversible,
that somehow someday you'll look back and feel remorseful for something.

How scary? Life~

Monday, March 23, 2009

CRUSH i mean it

A crush.
Its when you are so desperate to talk to him/her,
but because of a matter of pride,
you decided to wait to be talked to first.
A crush.
It is when you laugh happily at his/her jokes,
no matter how lame it is,
And you forgot how you made fun of other lamer's jokes earlier.
A crush.
Its when you do little little stuff for him/her,
and you end up keeping them,
because it just wasn't good enough to impress.
A crush.
Its when you would stay up till late night,
just because he/she is still awake,
and he/she might want your company.
A crush.
Its when he/she comes into the room,
everything seems prettier,
everything seems better.
Or even perfect.
A crush.
Its when you agree to any outings if he/she is going,
because when he/she is there,
everything is fun.
A crush.
Its when you will purposely dress up,
hoping that he/she will notice it ,
the outfit and hairdo u spent an hour on.
A crush.
Its when you will spend the whole day,
day dreaming about him/ her.
A crush.
Its when you will feel so happy,
just because he/she sat beside you,
just because he/she asked you, how was your day?
A crush.
Its when you can't really look into his eyes when you talk to him,
without having your heart beating a lil too fast,
and got all tongue-tied.
A crush.
It makes you smile, it makes you cry.
It gives you hope, it thrashes them.
It makes you want more, it makes you sick.
A crush.
Sometimes its so sweet, that you can't bear to let it go.
Sometimes its so painful, that you can't bear to let it stay.
Sometimes you can't decide whether its sweet or painful.
A crush.
People tend to lose their mind over it.
They can't seem to think straight when they have this crush on someone.
They do so much, to outstand themselves.
A crush,
something everyone will experience,
something so cute,
but yet so silly.
A crush.
Its nothing wrong, its natural.
But when you let it crush you,
its wrong.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Rainy day

Rain, always come without informing.
It just falls down gracefully and effortlessly.

Drop by drop, it wets the ground.
Drop by drop, it washes the dusty roads.
Drop by drop, it freshens the greens.
Drop by drop, it touches my heart.
Refreshed, recharged, the rain did it.

It screwed away the dark clouds.
The cool breeze that follows by, so soothing.
The formation of rainbow after the rain represents the new life.
It is beautiful, which is beyond the description.
Doesn't it?

I used to dislike rain,
because it somehow reminds me of
tears, sorrowful and sadness.

If I were to choose,
I would choose to cry on rainy day.
I wont feel lonely at that time,
because the Rain is accompanying me.

why it doesn't fall down tonight?

Saturday, February 21, 2009



Do you familiar with them?
Do you feel insecure when you are placed in a new environment?
Yes, I am.
When i first come to KBU.
I bet that everyone willbe the same.
With the new faces, new things, new everything.
However, time will help us to cope with the changes.
But often, we changed ourselves instead.

At different places, people vary.
They dress differently, they talk differently, they entertain themselves differently and of course, they study differently.
Insecurities seep in slowly as we hang out more with the new friends.
We feel insecure even when we are wearing our favorite outfit.
We feel insecure telling them how we entertain ourselves back where we came from.
But as time goes by,
we realised,
the way we dress changed, the way we talk changed, the places we hang out changed.
Maybe we don't even recognise the one we see in the mirror.
When we pause, and put some thought into it,
We will find that its not worth it at all.
All these superficial stuff, are not the sources of happiness in our life.
But instead,
they molded us into puppets, the world being the puppeteer.
Changing who we really are, is not the only way to fit in.
We can be who we really are, and still able to fit in.
We just need to search for the right circles of friends.

I am glad, being who I am.
I thank, those who accepted me as who I am.
I pray, that time and people will not change who I am.

Insecurities, BYEBYE.

Friday, February 20, 2009

12 things about me

1) I am a typically shopaholic. I love the feeling of buying things especially clothes. My dream is to make my wardrobe full with different COLOURS of clothes.

2) Mirror...mirror i love you! HEHEHE. I cant control myself to look into the mirror. No matter in the toilet, my room, on the street or whereever. I am self-loving. I admit that.

3) Sometimes i react a bit SLOW. I always laugh after my friends had finished their laughing.

4) Sleeping is my hobby. I can sleep in the morning, afternoon, evening, and at night. My current aim is to sleep for 24 hours straight, without getting up to do anything.

5) Edward Cullen is my hubby now. He told me that he likes me after the first sight.

6) I love the heavily downpour at night, especially before i sleep. After hearing the rhythm of the raindrops, i can sleep more tight.

7) I dont like to talk in the early morning. And i am always in bad mood in the morning. I just do not know what is the reason. However, it will back to the right track after one hour. I know it is strange.

8) I am trying very hard to leave my hair long. But it doesnt seem to be growing! Oh maybe its because I kept on cutting it. It is like slow-growing-grass on the head. ish.

9) I like my best friends a lot. They are my power puff girls. We share everything! No secret.

10) My favourite vacation is Maldives. The water is crystal clear. Scenery is breathtaking. Fish are darting happily here and there. Skylarks are flying freely in the sky. Can you imagine that? I hope that i could go there with my love one, probably EDWARD CULLEN? HAHA (=

11) I am seriously addicted to the internet now. Very seriously! Help me!

12) When i am depressed, I will hide myself in the room and watch tragedic movie. Then cry out loudly.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Don't ask, don't tell

Have you ever have any secrets?

Secrets that you cannot let
your parents,
your friends,
your teachers,
your boy friend,
your girl friend,
your boss.........
to know it.
Because you think that they are private and confidential.
You want to hide it in the bottom of your heart.
Not sharing with the others.

Life is actually full of secrets.
Sometimes we might need to tell lies in order to hold the secret.
Then we need to tell another one to cover the previous one.
How much lies do we need to tell just to cover one secret?

Consequently, this will also affect our reliability.
what we are hiding in our heart is actually more than what we can speak out.
Don't you feel that it is a torture?

Actually you are feeling like wanna tell everyone around you.
However, you try to control yourself, not to tell.

Do nothing secretly, as you know, Time sees and hears all the things.
There are three things that cannot long stay hidden: the sun, the moon and the TRUTH.
I prefer to tell the truth.